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15 September 2005 @ 06:57 pm
Dance team!!!!  
I've been off and on going from 154 to 147.It sucks.I just got on to my school dance team.Which is so cool.I hope this will help me lose weight too.Which would be so awsome!!!

stats...

Height:5" 4.5'..i shrank half an inch since March..weird
Current weight:152.2...I went to the doctor yesterday
Highest weight:167
Lowest weight:138
Short term goal:140
Long term goal:130 or 125
 
 
Current Mood: blahblah
 
 
 
autumnleavesdie on October 1st, 2005 02:25 am (UTC)
Congrats on making the dance team!
autumnleavesdie on October 1st, 2005 02:28 am (UTC)
Hi. You guys seem nice and I could use the support. This summer I steadily restricted and didn't binge at all (which is good for me) and I lost weight. I still wasn't very happy though, and I was thinking about how I wasn't being a good Christian caring to much about food and my body, so I tried to eat like a normal person. Plus, my mom found out how much weight I lost and she and my ice skating coach were trying to make me eat a bunch to gain it all back, and I hate lying to people, and I just wanted to be happy for once.
This ruined everything. I gained some weight and started really freaking out out, and so I tried to not eat, but then I just binged. Grrr. I gained about 7 evil pounds. Now of course gluttony is also a sin (sorry for getting all religious on you guys), plus you get fat and its just a lot worse. I think that basically, if I try to eat normally, I will just binge because I cannot live without some kind of eating disorder. It's like, if I want to be happy, I need more self-esteem, but in order to get self-esteem, I need to get rid of my E.D., and in order to get rid of my E.D. I need more self-esteem. So I'm stuck in a rut (and NO ONE knows about my E.D., so I don't plan on telling anyone or asking for therapy, NEVER). I've tried going on somethingfishy and stuff to recover, but nothing works, so I'm giving up for now. There's really nothing I can do about It anyway. I'm just too much of a fatty. I just need to lose weight and get back to where I was quickly.Oh well, I'm just rambling, so I'll stop now. I can't wait until regionals!! I took a lot of time off this summer though (4 weeks of summer camp) which was a really bad idea, so my double flip and lutz are cheated, but I'm getting better.

MY STATS:
hw:116
lw:98
cw:105 :(
Height:5'7" (wow…. Really?)
stgw:98
ltgw:95, then 90
age: 15 on 10/23
sk8ing level: intermediate

Thanx for taking the time to read all my whining. You are loved!
-Autumn
Animinimalization on October 22nd, 2005 06:23 pm (UTC)
heyyy i'm intermediate too
this community seems dead..

but i'd like to add you
add me back?
Amy♥prozacgirl1 on November 2nd, 2005 07:08 am (UTC)
hey!!
Hey,
Sorry I didn't reply when I first got this message.I've been so busy.This comunity doesn't really worm much anymore.No one really updates.I'm going to add you as my friend.Luvs!!♥

-Amy
ihaterockmelon on November 16th, 2005 11:00 am (UTC)
this community kinda looks dead...but i used to be a figure skater and that's when my ed began. add me??
Amy♥prozacgirl1 on November 17th, 2005 07:31 am (UTC)
I added you♥
(if you get a comment from boyloveme.That is my bad cuz that is my other lj.So Sorry.)